Need to vent to people who get it.
I'm the first HR person at a small company and have been here about 5 years. (11 years of experience total.) I started in a very tactical role and as the company has grown (60% in 1 yr.), my role has evolved with it. I've basically built the HR function from scratch while wearing a million hats. We recently hired a TA person under me because things have gotten so busy.
The last several months have been rough across the company. We've grown quickly, everyone is stressed and stretched thin. I've spent months feeling like I was keeping a million balls in the air, only to get called out for the one little thing that slipped through the cracks. It feels like the 99% gets ignored and the focus is always on the 1% I missed.
My boss (CFO) doesn't have the bandwidth to oversee HR anymore, so leadership brought in an HR consultant to evaluate processes, leadership expectations, etc. Rationally, I understand why. We've brought in consultants for other parts of the business too. They positioned her as a resource/sounding board.
But emotionally? I feel weirdly vulnerable and defensive.
I know no HR function built by one person during rapid growth is perfect. I know she's being paid to find gaps.
I can't shake the feeling that someone with 20+ years of experience is going to come in, nitpick everything I've built, and tell leadership they need someone more experienced. Again.. I know that happens. I get it. It doesn’t make it suck any less lol.
And honestly, I think I’m finally burned out from HR all together.